The last few weeks have been difficult to say the least.  The end of my final quarter of design school is fast approaching and before last night, I had yet to really feel inspired about my project.  In fact, I’ve hated the entire process which is completely unlike me.  While I’m excited and invigorated by residential design, the daunting commercial assignment of designing a “flagship store” in Toronto could not seem less appealing.  Whenever I finally feel focused for a split second on the endless CAD documents in front of me, I somehow wind up on Pinterest pinning away all things residential or back in my kitchen baking or cleaning something to avoid thinking about the flow of retail spaces and whether or not my fitting rooms are ADA.  It’s amazing how fun organizing becomes when I’ve got a mountain of homework to do.

Last week, Jake and I ordered Chinese for the first time in ages and I was blessed with the best fortune cookie fortune I’ve ever come across.  I rediscovered it last night while trying to organize something instead of working on my project and while I’m not superstitious by any means, the message really struck a chord with me.  It made me realize that this quarter, I’ve been entirely plagued by self doubt.  I’ve never designed a retail space (to this magnitude) and by second guessing every line I’ve drawn, I’ve become completely exhausted and in this perpetual cycle of trying to find the inspiration to pull me through… My insecurities have in effect built the barriers I’m constantly trying to overcome, putting me at square one week after week after week.

That being said, stumbling across my little fortune last night was just what I needed to get the ball rolling again and I’m finally feeling like I’m getting somewhere with my project.  There is no better feeling than progress and I can’t wait to have it soon completed.  Updates are soon to come…